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2011-06-15T18:03:00.000-07:00

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2011-06-13T10:38:00.000-07:00

My dearest Ali,

Ur wish gave me a sense of pride a feeling of worth and above all u made me feel '' strength & power to act & react nd just a PAT on my shoulder to look in to myself ''

U r definitely one guardian angel of mine who love & care me immensely, and next to the great blessing of myself i see u darling,thankx for the wishes, I really walked down the lane of memory :) i know & i realise good things r in store for me, may be my mango tree's going to flourish a little bit late, but yeah it sure is gonna gift me with the best fruits :).I know its just a bit late may b sounds a bit too late but yeah as long as i m surrounded by angels i am sure ll make it through :) thanks for being there, thanks for being U -- love & miss u but m glad ur presence is felt always :)

The mails u sent me the wishes u sent me, the animated mails and the piece of advices and way u listen the way u cheer me up the way u encourage me just makes me get on track most of the time and i feel that i m less like someone and MORE LIKE MYSELF. You very well know the battle that ve been fighting for the past few years and the more i m fighting the harder it is getting ,screwing me up more and more.Now i have no plans to leave it to failures -i will still fight and thank u for the strength u give me. don’t u think i deserve good things may b de best things,atleast for all those roads I ve walked and all those things I ve been doing I do deserve not good but a little bit more than BEST!

Bday was nice had dinner with friends, cooked food chicken biriyani,chutney salad, fruit salad,papadam -achar pinne yeah cake ondayirunu!On the whole it was a calm nd quite yet nice day! :)Korae wish kitti -korae blessings kitti ''athu porae ali -ee janmam poornam ayi nu thonnal :P ''(Received lots of wishes and prayers & most of all blessings too many & I kind of go the feeling of a COMPLETION and eternity) --my heart's full :)

Always..

Luttu : )

Best funny Quotes

2010-03-21T11:09:00.000-07:00

I took a pain pill Y r u still here....
I can only please one person a day. Today isn’t your day.Tommorrow doesn’t look good either.
'’I LOVE YOU ‘’ is eight letters, so is BULLSHIT.
Beer doesn’t make you FAT; it makes you LEAN against bars, chairs tables & walls.
Ucry I cry,U laugh-I laugh,U jump off a cliff –I laugh even harder.
Kisses spread germs……Germs are hated….so kiss me baby..i am VACINATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Smile and the world smile with u,laugh & they’ll all think you are on DRUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It’s a beautiful day, Now watch some assholes Fuck it up.
Handle every situation like a dog, if you can’t eat it or screw it, Piss on it and walk away.
Procrastinators unite tomorrow…
I speak Sarcasm as 2nd language.
We live in an age where pizza gets to your house before the police
I m not ignoring you. You’re just INSIGNIFICANT.
Remember my name; u’ll be screaming it later.
Live for the moments u can’t put in words.
You tried ur best and FAILED miserably, the lesson is ‘’never TRY ‘’
Heaven won’t have me & Hells afraid I ll take over…so I guess I m stuck here ;)
Faith believes in things when common sense tells you not to!!!!!!!!!
It’s so simple to be wise, just think of something STUPID to say & say the opposite.
Remember it’s mandatory to grow old but it is optional to grow up.
If you can’t convince people, confuse them.
Never think about the mistakes u MADE, think about the Mistakes you will MAKE.
Whether the glass if half full or Half Empty, you will still get the drink.

Sharmi :)

Options & Priorities.

2009-10-06T02:30:00.000-07:00

Do first things first and second things not at all.—Peter Drucker.
It's so easy to do what's familiar, comfortable, or fun. It's so difficult, sometimes, to tackle the highest priority. And sometimes it's difficult to even know your top priorities.

We suffer from over-choice: 67 varieties of toothpaste, 487 styles of shoes, and 186 brands of cell phones with 137 telephone companies. We demand more variety than we could possibly need or want, and as a result, we get lost in options, opportunities, and choices. There are 87 varieties of lawyers, and 75 specialties inside medicine. The world of work can be a confusing landscape. When you're flooded with career possibilities, or "swimming up Niagara Falls," it's good to spend time answering questions like, "What is the best and highest use of my talents?" and, "How can I make a bigger impact?"

If you can't establish clear career priorities by yourself, use friends and business acquaintances as a sounding board. They will want to help. Ask them to help you determine your "first things" and "second things." Or seek an outside coach or advisor to help you focus. Because if you don't know what your "first things" are, you simply can't do them FIRST.
Basically choosing and differentiation between options and priorities. Well losing oneself with out knowing ones priorities and blaming circumstances does not really work nd sound good. Understanding what one needs, and choosing the best that makes then improve on one self... Nobody’s is perfect but sure, the best lies in the unseen cores find it out and make best use of it…

Regards
Sharmi
:)

2009-10-05T10:46:00.000-07:00

More than what I learned from u.i learned a lot more from mE. When I sit back in that old broken dusty bench, gazing at those yesterdays, everything rushes through my mind like the oceans blocked by the rocks. Everything has passed at lights speed. I know nothing really matters looking back at those spilt droplets of milk, I d rather sit and count on all my blessings and wish my self good luck for my future, as they say those wrong steps and unwalked roads would definitely lead me to the discovery of a newer one.

I’m sure everybody at some point or the other would have a quite really dark tunnel to travel in this lovely phase of their life, but trust me there’s always light at the end, believe it or not but that’s de truth. Of all the hurt one cannot bear would be “betrayal “I ve learned that it’s all a feeling of heart. At times I sit aimlessly looking out of the window thinking about my favorite broken old mirror. It took me a while to realize high time to buy a new one rather than looking at the broken lot, getting my hands torn on mending the broken pieces and shedding tears. It’s a hard fact mobiles are build to mend walls and build bridges far across. Sad truth –hardly one has time to speak to people sleeping next to them, but to people thousands of kilometers apart. Was that a bridge or a wall???

No one can hurt u unless u feel UR hurt. The best lessons are learned once we fall down while walking that’s wen we break our knee and rest for a while-and that’s exactly when we take time out of the world to think...Think on really hard things that we barely thought about, and its obvious that when u fall u learn to walk perfect. Now I ve had my fall de best way I should but I ll never stop walkin, ll dust my ass and start walking may be ll be a bit careful while choosing the roads.

WUD Rather take de roadz Travelled Less.
:)

De day......@ Work....

2009-07-16T13:05:00.000-07:00

It was a fresh morning.I was all set to leave for work,The first day @ work in my new company.I was all dressed well starched -black n white cotton salwar,black strapped flats and black bag,very confidently said bye to auntie and left for the cab.Yeah it was 5:20a.m,i lived @ T Nagar almost 45 minutes from Ambattur where i worked.I was the 1st pick up,though very confident and cool i was nervous from top to bottom.It was too very early,being the 1st pick,strange driver -Almost a stranger-the next pick up was another stranger--The feeling was " god this is D day -DEAD DAY ".As per the message received from the transport team at office it was the right cab,which came right in front of my flat's gate.I hopped in said hi to him and just took out the mobile and plugged in to music,very sleepy,after that fresh shower and morning blues...cool breeze blowing on your face as the sumo moved on.... cursing "nothing " for my disturbed sleep. Reached the 1st pick up after 20mins,the cab driver made a couple of miss calls and a hefty guy walked in."Hai " that's all i could read from his lip... weaved a hi back with a gentle smile and i cuddled on to my comfort zone....after a few minutes,we reached @ the next point-a female got in...not very interesting as she was in a grin,may be she was also annoyed over her broken sleep... :(

well after quite sometime we reached the gates of my so called work place.We signed our trip sheets and walked in,took the lift got to the 6Th floor.Wow a whole load of unknown people,all smartly dressed in clean formals...waoh....1st day at work,well the hustle and people around just shook me awake.We moved in to the training room.Our trainer a very smart -Very short guy almost like a school student with a "tie & Goti " (I m sure he ll kill me if he reads this :)) :)) well trust me he opened his mouth nd for a fraction of second i doubted whether i am talking to a British -Man what an accent...the day started with the Induction then break for -Breakfast-That's when people started talking to each other.Not much of question answer stuffs but the Ursula's,u from?previous company?living alone?married?committed?the normal-regular-routine " ?'s "..OK breaks done and we moved back in to the training room.

We were a batch of 13.Let me take u through the abnormal part before the normals--A freak'in guy who looked right out of "Eminem's House-Low waist jeans(the trousers looked as if-it desperately wanted to fall to the floor)-clearly gelled hair almost standing straight like after an electric shock,an inverted mustache-a black wrist band-a very thin guy-with a shoe which almost weighed like u need ur hands to carry it along with Ur legs to move forward.Cal's himself a DJ-Drummer-Dopper or what all....SPECIES-1...Lets move on to this guy who hardly looked at ur face,the moment u looked at his side,he either looks at the floor or may be the walls,as though he was in to deep investigation...SPECIES2.....This another person who just gave firm "stare-really scaring stare "..females.. yeah...there was this very smart looking lady with a very pleasing way of speaking and pretty approachable...i was quite admiring her when the intro started i realised she was married...well the next part was she has a 4 month old baby boy... i could not believe it,she was so pretty and hardly looked married "with a baby " guess all de guys in the batch were shattered... ;) ...well as everybody started off intro..there's this "COFFIN Shaped "Guy almost a THICK RECTANGLE..looked exactly like a master sized "teddy bear" with a shirt that was too loose and too HUGE... for this already huge figure...very heavy voice,with had extra bass... Finally this old man i don know if i need to call him old...as he looked a bit older than all of us..pretty out of the box.. attitude... with serious grins and strict looks...looked like a"small sized -BIG daddy " .....well i forgot to specify this lady... who walked in as though "she s a straight line " and just out of a multicoloured paint shop...all brightly coloured (Actually i never knew there were so many colours until i saw her dress- all the colours in the world were there)..with all pink nd green apparels,gosh... " FUNKY FEMALE"....the day just rolled on as though time moved on pretty very fast...i was as if an a dream land...watching all aliens... luckily the guy who travelled with me in the cab was my batch mate (at least 1 familiar face).I was pretty quite in fact i was just a silent watcher...just smiled for everything and replied only when asked something-The very 1st day people labelled me as a very silent lady in the batch (Little did they knew that i am non-stop whatever)I didn't wanna change the impression...either.... the day ended and de journey started towards home.... i was all set to meet aunty nd speak out about all the aliens i met at the VOA training...

There was aunty waiting for me at the doors....gave me a warm hug and we just sat at the table with a hot cup of coffee...and she was all set eager to hear from me "1st day @ work" well over a cup of coffee.. and a few...quick bites....i took her through the days chores... and the species i met....it was such a strange yet nice feeling...SPECIES...... Wat all weired stuffs.... that we call "yuck" people call it -style & attitude..every mistake turns to a new fashion statement....man.... "am i in deep shit ..?"...that was a lovely day :)
selamat kembali bekerja !!work hard, work smart !!

Sharmi

July to feb...

2009-02-28T02:31:00.000-08:00

This would be another piece of extraordinary change.. That’s taking place in my life.. For what reason “unknown”. Sudden demise of a very special person in your family. Everything happens in a fraction of second. Long back I decided to run away from my self-my family-my carrer..In search of solitude (Guess this sounds very dramatic) or jus wanted to alone away by my self for reasons “unknown”.

I resigned my job, started preparing to get things started for my higher studies abroad. At first the target was Australia…then it switched off to the UK.now the choices switched between both the countries. For a while it continued nd finally I decided for the UK.Got equipped with my IELTS score. Now the worst part was VISA processing, it took more time than usual.Days passed. weeks nd months rolled by nd I was jobless with a few..freelance recruitment projects..and a really huge delay in payments. Clients are always the best when they hand over projects but they are really terrific when it comes to payments.At the age of 24 its natural that parents start looking for alliance well that was another messed up situation. Well neither my visa documents were getting ready. I was more like stuck in an “asylum” with jus nothing to do. Loads to think very little to do.. getting drained off day after day…I wasted almost 7 month no regrets over the wasted years. Trust me its really “ a devils workshop –AN IDLE MIND”.

I found no resort any where, internet become the same old “orkutting..Gmail/talk, google “ etc etc.. TV sounded the same old..Starmovies..HBO,or zee studio..everything jus become so mechanical black n white nd the bore old routine.I was looking for a change.. a really really refreshing change I might go insane this way.I Decided to push off nd I started looking for jobs it was tough to stay any further the very same way with jus “nothing nd hoping for probability”.I moved to Chennai,got settled with aunty an old friend of amma.Well she sounded VERY STRICT,well well I said initially but the whole picture changed when I got to know her closer.I did not miss amma much cuz of her,nd here I started off my job hunting. It was really hectic initially for a person like me who s not much used to traveled alone anywhere. I had my dad or mom or anybody to accompany me.Well this was a totally different scenario, I had to travel from Trivandrum to Chennai all alone.Job hunting was even more interesting going for interviews at places whose names I ve never even heard off. These were places I had to take more than 2-3 buses or at times even the train to reach those points. As I was familiar with the language I did not have much problem communicating with people.Thnkfully I did not face much difficulty getting offered with companies but this long tiring wait for the turn was really pathetic.I was offered nd the saddest part was I had more than 2 weeks left for the date of joining.    

Well after the long wait “ D Day “ arrived.I joined with noOOOOO not really much hopes after all those bore bugged up..black n white struggle I didn’t really expect much.I was in batch with the majority ratio men,and females less in number and the worst part was all of them were married.NO no no misunderstandings please..i m bored with them.. really really.. stuck with either the dialogues” my husband says.. my husband likes.. my husband has.. ..gosh…” its boring……
Well de later part of may be in the next episode…

What lost & what Gained.... :)

2008-12-21T04:08:00.000-08:00

This piece is dedicated to all my friends who don't really give a daamn to " them selves"
Wondering what? Let me explain it through this ultra modern Techie freak. The apple of eyes for her dad, adorable simple homely daughter for her mom & matured yet solid sister for her siblings. Well this lady was a gentle typical small town chick, quite obsessed with the city and the people-style & colours.

After high school she moved on to a city called Hassan(Karnataka),i would say another "small town " a few more added colours from her previous town. Settled off with her aunt, uncle and their 2 daughters. Here she meets this young handsome gentle man who’s a next street neighbour. In more simple words aunts family friend. This mallu girl developed sense of changes, a gentle shift from the mallu style to the karnataka style. At first it seemed weird to her but later on when the male attraction seemed to catch up every cells of her brain things changed. Everyday meet ups-long walks-temple visits-nd festival bash and family get together just brought them more nd more closer. Seasons changed, years rolled by she completed graduation, and it was time for her to start flight.
With a heavy heart of missing her heart throb and high hope of finding a job she left for Bangalore. She ended up finding a job. Things started gaining pace nd seemed to get back to normal. Everyday phone calls for hours and hours, weekend visits and all the hell just giving raise to questions, god when are we getting "knotted”. One fine day her mother visits their smart-hardworking-young & homely daughter. She finds out that she was nurturing this " love" for this guy, who seemed totally useless, undereducated-out of the status-Bad job” interstate " "Inter-caste" all -INTER & UNDER statements. Though all were against both of them still they continued the conversations once in a while. A percentage of what she earned was dedicated to him. She helped him start a new business. Things seemed to get back on track, She joined for a part time MBA in one of the reputed colleges. Her sister also joined her to pursue her masters in computer applications. The smartest thing is that now all her earnings were to be broken between "home" "heart throb" "self -rent-food" nd now studies of both her sister and self ".

As the two sisters were living together it was just a difficult thing for her to manage off with the conversation. One fine day her sis found out that she was still continuing the relationship nd it was high time that it comes to an end. With these thoughts her sis called up their mother. Back at their home almost 90% of the bills were been cleared with her earnings, mom and dad engaged in to small daily wages works. Heading for a middle class family highly ambitious, she had no plans to give up on herself. She had invested a huge amount of loans on her heart throb even with out her parents concern. She was held up with her work, studies, flat, home, sister,bills and loans things started suffocating her. She seemed to have travelled a long road with out her usual "love talks” for over 3 months.

This is when her aunt visits her with this glad news that the HERO is married?????She conveyed this sweet message of her guy being married to someone else. It was more than a disaster for our lady. By now she had lost her "mind" "self" "Trust" "faith" earnings nd what not. I would say it was like a POWERSHOCK in her life. With no fuse to fix it other than herself. Roamed about aimlessly, with the bills going higher up, no answers for all the time and money she lost - B E T R A Y AL.Her colleagues were wondering she s still moving on With all the weights of a million tons of disaster in her heart."She didn't give up" .No one to blame - no complains. Life started showing its colourless shades of coffee-breakfast-lunch class-work-dinner-home the regular mechanical routine.
This is when Raj gets to watch her more closely. It didn’t take much time for him to study all those hell she walked through over the past few months. He sealed it up in his mind that nobody else would fit in better sharing his life. Things were pretty fast since then. Though with an incomplete happiness she agreed to the proposal. Throwing back those heavy lumps of " Betrays -past -bitching around”, she decided to walk on. Few weeks back Raj married her. Now settled in Kormangala.Raj a SW engineer and a part time DJ by profession. Our lady working for a networking firm.
What i would like to convey here is "it does n matter what we were or what we did -All that matters is what we ARE NOW”, its all up to us to decide and choose our PRIORITIES amidst a million OPTIONS. Its we who decide our happiness. Past might seem haunting but learn to sit and admire it thank god that it happened. Learn to choose—prioritize—leave—take--leave nd go on and most of all NEVER REGERET.

S H A R M I
:)

Simple little things

2008-11-09T07:20:00.000-08:00

It was a sunday & unlike every other sunday's i woke up quite early :) . No no not any serious urgent fire on ass work to complete.No power so i was sweating load nd so helplessly woke up.Walked out of my room,caught my hands on the Sunday suppliments nd there came mom with a cup of coffee.Holding the coffee mug nd paper i just walked out sat on my usual chair.It was a bit cold outside.. the morning mist.. fresh cold breeze..;) i should say it was romantic :D.It was cold.. morning mist.. fresh scent of blooming flowers,hot coffee it was nice nd minutes later it started drizzling god i was wondering am i really awake or " just dreaming "?

I started going through all those colored pages in THE HINDU.I should say more than the news part i look more eagerly in to the suppliments and so i was gazing through the magazine section.This calm yet lovely drizzle did not just let me concentrate on paper.I started thinking though all of us do a hell load of huge things like watching cricket,or racing F1,or attending a huge party as humans what we truly enjoy and admire are the simple little things like watching the sun go down,Morning mist,Going on a long walk with the sweetest yet the most simple conversation with someone whom u've spoken for ages,getting drenched in the rain,seeing that special some one's name flashing on that little face of ur mobile.I mean though we travel broad nd long roads what we truly remember are the cute little trees nd small little water falls that passed by.

In this race of life we dont forget to mail the ones who are miles apart nd dont even forget to call up people we meet everyday at work.Quite many a times we forget to speak to the ones who share our rooms or rather with whom we live.The roller coaster of lifes become so hectic nd tight that we are all running behind things.We might get those huge stuffs but really miss those simple little things which really add values.I sat there thinking sharmi what on earth are you doin here go wake up ur sister nd start scratching nd irritating her.MMmmm well at times there has been days when i even see my mom dad or sis though we share the same roof.That is what is called a hectic schedule." Probably ".A small drizzle, and a cup of coffee has done that miracle nd my thought ran wild.

" Piece of u.."

2008-10-16T13:25:00.000-07:00

I loved you a lot for the long walks we went out on,though mom always lectured at you for buying me icecreams and pasteries you always got me one.... :) .I hated you to the core every time you sat with me to teach me the multiplication tables -everytime you woke me up early at 5 on sunday's -.. :( only to push me inside the showers nd walk me out on the cold... nd landing up to the singing classes... straight from there.. breakfast nd finally.. it ends in to my violin classes.. oh dear sunday also "chickens never spared.."

You were truly a spot at playing badminton ... and the morning walks became more interesting as i grew up.I hated it when you never appreciated me on winning prizes at a high school level nd district level.. to you i just sounded just another certificate "not a big deal.." little did i knew that u discussed with your better half at night you truly feel proud about me.You always compared me..with the little one i hated you for that..though you secretly told her how much u appreciated my simple little deeds.you always had this curtain drawn against..mm bad again..

You gave me life's greatest surprises.. My first "Bicycle " my first "puppy.." my first "aquarium " my first "scooter " you helped me find my long lost friend.. my first "Espirit ",our first unplanned.. long trip..the best lunch after a whole 5 month of messy food at the hostel.. i would love to carve them all on the walls of my dream house.. nd would like to tell you how much i love you from all walls of my "heart ".Itz a disaster thats just creating an unmendable hole inside my heart when i look at the real pictures.. that i am going to lose you.. god was so cruel and so heartless.. to give those countless.. cells growing on..u..and i feel sad.. that the sunshine.. is going to fade off anytime.. itz not that easy living on prayers.. with the feeling that anytime the candle may blow off though it lookz perfect.. i love you.. you are simply the best.. nd you just mean to me more than... words can expalin.. thanking heavens for all the mercies he showed in making me a " piece of u.."

" EXperiMentz R gOoD "

2008-09-20T22:47:00.000-07:00

I woke up one morning hearing the loud crashing noise of the radio.Amma was trying to tune into some frequency.On the other side appa was trying to surf through sports channel,not far away from there sister was busy surfing the web nd what was i doing.. after the long tiring journey from kanjirapally i was trying to sleep off like a "dead mans final sleep " and guess what it was so very annoying the noise of key board,TV and the radio.. ;( i was trying to drown in to sleep when i was shaken awake by the mobile crying grrrrrrr that was the end.. i tried disconnecting the call few many times.. it seemed the person on the other end was standing on "thorn".It was my friend Arun.He is in to event management .Often barges in all of a sudden with his 11th hour preparations.sadly this time i was very annoyed.. but i didn't show it on call..

Well this time it was for a event hosting with CCD technopark TVM.It seems there was some issue with the program schedule.The singers who were supposed to come in by 3:00 would not turn up due to some personnel issue.He wanted me to help him with that..it was just more than a nightmare for me.. believe me.I was already tired out from the journey-trying hard for a peaceful sleep and this guy on the other hand needed help badly-Whatever TV radio and the computer would not let me sleep anyways.. so i got up.. feeling rather pity on my disturbed sleep,got fresh and started off to tech park.My pick up came in i was heading towards the Scene.. completely blank.. that "i was going to sing in front of a crowd.. i ve never done that B4 in my life..except for the bathroom singing.. and a few occasions in college .. man this was REAL.. if it went reel people ll trow eggs on me.... i was really blank... i didn't know what song to sing.. how to sing. no rehearsal's.. and i was just few hours away from the real show... :( with all these tragic thoughts in mind.. i just pretended as if i was COOoooLLL but yeah my heart was steaming and burning.. with tension..

Indu was another female helping arun host the show.. she came to pick me.. a very friendly female..shiju came in.. running about weaving "hai sharmi.. welcome.. m shiju manager CCD & Ginger group of hotels.."giving me a firm mmm rather very firm handshake..well i was out f mind already "god such big people.. such big show.. and so small me.. what m i going na present myself.."this was a total..alien land for me " then came Arun running -sorry sharmi..again 11 th hour ".well he jus gave a few instructions and asked me to go download the lyrics of a few songs i was comfortable singing.He was also in to DJing so he did have the karaoke of almost all de songs.After instructing arun jus walked away.. myself and indu were left surfing the web.We were jus running around all the pages looking out for song lyrics.Well the 1st issue was what to sing. my voice was not the husky nd sexy kind to sing "item numbers " neither the soft and melody kind to sing melodies.Somehow i manged to choose a few which would rather fit in to my voice or rather i wont mess up singing.We were running out of time,The show time was nearing.. i was already dead.. :(.Sometime later a guy and a girl walked in.They said they r also "in " for singing.. i was a bit relaxed.. but wait.. de guy has released his own music album... nd the girl.. oooh gosh she was a part of a music band based in "Calcutta" arey yar.. both "pR O F E S S IONAL" i m screwed.. i just ran around to find arun.. nd started pleading jus let me out of tis mess. i cant sing..arun on the other hand.. gently flattering me.. to just take up this challenge..convincing me with all the possible words available.

I had no other choice but to "do IT " whether people threw eggs or tomato.. i had to just do it.. now that was the only thing in my mind.. finally it was time.. de arena was set up.. it was open air..we had this huge speakers -woofers-sub woofz.. and things set up on one side of the stage..nd the audience sat right in front,it was more like a coffee day out.Not a messy crown anyways..dim lights.. and soft and psychedelic music played randomly.The air was filled with fresh smell of cookies.. coffee.. capuchino.. cakes.. hush nd push of kids... whatever now i was feeling a bit comfortable.Just giving self counsellings to myself.." they wont kill u anyway.. at de most people might howl.. tats it.. mmm well i gave a gentle pat to myself,made myself a little bold and sat waiting my turn ".Shiju nd Indu came every now nd then.. cheering me up.. :) finally things started..off with a bold yet friendly speech by the manager "Ginger group of hotels -Tech park TVM" ooooouuuu tat was a good start..followed by "haan tu.. from jannat performed by Azeem.."
wah tat was an awesome one..,then in between there was the beverage tasting contest,quiz competition etc.I was almost ok now.. able to melt with the environment now.Now came my turn.I took the sheet of paper with my lyrics,holding the mike in one hand.. i was confused.. to hold de mike -or hold the paper,i was cold all of a sudden.. rather blank.. i was on a stage.. all eyes.. on me..i just entered.. arun was sitting on my right with his system..and karoake thing.. whispering at me "sharmi at any point if ur vocals get messed up i have the original track ll play that up don worry ".I started off.. calling up de names of all de godz.. that i ve known till now..started off "han yeh koi to...-Jab we met (yeh ishq).I started off well but when i reached the end of my 1st sheet of paper.. i found it a bit difficult to turn to the next paper with the mike... however arun managed off with the TRACK ;)..i completely forgot that i was singing for a crowd,it was a very nice feeling.. once i walked out of the stage.. the pleasant smile from the crowd.. the cheers.. they gave nd the support from arun.. Indu nd shiju...i managed to sing 2 songs.. it was a nice in fact really rocking "fEELing ".We finished off the karoake session.. ending session.. and de final dance floor session came in... and all were jumping off their seats.finally everything came to an end.I realized that u don really need to be a master of things to do things.."situations make u do really weired things.. -u might not even know that u really knew something like this at all .." i kept wondering anyways.. no practice.. no "takes" everything truly " 11th HOUR PREPARATION " luckily things were on my favor.
After the fun and party,we the "Team Arun's Gang "had dinner together,u see we where the guest for the show,so godly treatment heavenly feast ..i just looked at the watch it was 10:20p.m god i was late for home.. there was no second door or a back door to my house.. as it was an apartment.I am ruined another time.. somehow i ate up my dinner.. and got in to leave.. still wondering what do i tell my parents.Mom kept calling a million times.. as for the loud noise i could not hear the phone ring.. now i sat looking out of the window.. what stories to "build up".Dad was at home..i reached home... my parents had not yet slept.. they were all sitting in the living room.. all three of them -amma appa nd sis,watching TV this time all of them together doing one common activity & eagerly waiting to tear me off to "50 million pieces ".Now amma starred off with her usual 2000 watt lecture.. dad kept quite just a stare.. that was equivalent to burning u alive.Sister mocking at all this winking and smiling at me.. and me.. on the other hand.. just kept quite as if m deaf and they were all speaking to the walls and curtains.Just walked in.. got fresh.. had dinner for the 2nd time else lecture for that also.. then sat with them... explained the whole mess.. nd fun.. gosh they smiled at last...That day came to an end..me kept thinking.. "how did this happen- or did this actually happen or was tat a nightmare. "
But let me tell u its really awesome to be "a jack of all Trades " @ at some point realizing that.. accidents are good at times.. or rather run fast gather all ur spirits.. throw ur self in to the river.. knowing that u don't know swimming.. nd that u might drown..in spite of that.. jump in then..seeing death.. and finally u realize mmm itz not the end.. u can still try swimming.. ;) ;) ;) :) tatz wat i felt.. like...i had fun... "LOADS ND LOADZ......

Regards
Sharmi
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